Satisfy♥

Wow, well it's been officially four months and seventeen days since my last post...and this makes me sad. I was really enjoying getting into blogging; that is, before the dreaded school started back. Now I'm on break again until January 9th, but honestly I've been so bored I'm just ready to go back and dive into my busy lifestyle again. But, unlike last semester, I am going to make more of an effort to continue blogging. I think it helps me understand and remember what God is saying to me when I try to type it out into a blog. On that note, there are some things that I think I've realized about my life lately. One being that I don't know what it was I was searching for...but it seems like without even realizing it...I spent a lot of last semester searching for something to satisfy me. And in my head, I've always known that only God can do that. Anddd I think I realized that tonight in my heart. God isn't just an idea. He isn't just someone to turn to when you have the spare time lying around or you need a wish granted...God is real. He always has been and He always will be. God Satisfies. Period. The end. That's all there is to it. Nothing in this world will ever come close to being able to satisfy that void in your heart. Got that? Nothing. You can try all you want, but in the end, we will all come back to Christ. I really got caught up in going through the motions last semester...even though I told myself I wouldn't. That's what I can't understand. Looking back, I know my heart wasn't in my relationship with Christ. I had stopped depending solely on Him. But while it was happening, I don't know what I thought. I do know this. There will be some changes made. Tonight. I'm gonna stop saying Christ is my number one and I'm gonna start acting like it. I will stop putting off my daily time with God for other things, sleep especially. That's really what it boils down to. Daily [yes-every single day] time with God. How am I expecting to grow closer to Him when I refuse to spend alone time with Him? I mean...group dates are great, but I would have never gotten to know Justin like I know him now if we hadn't spent some alone time together. I feel like this whole blog is just some sort of rant or something...and I think I write these more for myself than for those reading it, but if you are reading this-thank you and I hope you might hold me accountable to all I'm saying. I really do want my relationship with Christ to grow-I am going to be willing to step out of my comfort zone and listen to what God is calling me to do. But it all starts with being satisfied by Christ. This post was inspired by listening to the song "Satisfy" by Tenth Avenue North on repeat on my way home tonight. Truly listen to the lyrics, I hope they spark something in your heart as well.

Hebrews 13:8

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." -Hebrews 13:8

There's this thing we all try to avoid, but unfortunately we are all still forced to face: change. You know, some people like change. They are so used to change or excited about change that it doesn't even bother them. As for me, I hate change. I like things to be routine and reliable...not everchanging and unpredictable. But I've realized that's something I have to get over. Things are going to change, even when we really don't want them to. People leave for college. Those friends who we said would last forever..don't. And that house you've lived in your whole life won't always be there. But there is one thing that never changes...GOD. We always try [or at least I do] to rely on the people or ideas or events of this world..when in reality there is only one thing worth relying on. And that's God. In Hebrews it tells us that Jesus Christ doesn't change. How great is that??? Gosh, I've read this verse a million times..but for some reason tonight it's what I really needed to hear. I no longer have to fear change. I can let go of those friends, start those new classes, and be ready to live on my own. All because I have something that I'm taking with me. That isn't changing. EVER. The love of Christ will always be there even when the love of others runs out. But another thing...we can't wait until things start changing to realize we must rely on Christ. Develop a personal relationship with Him now. It will only make things easier and make your faith stronger when you are faced with those changes or struggles. Like the Jesus Culture song goes...

Higher than the mountains that I face
Stronger than the power of the grave
Constant in the trial and the change
One thing remains
Your love never fails
It never gives up
It never runs out on me
Because on and on and on and on it goes
It overwhelmes and satisfies my soul
And i'll never, ever, have to be afraid
Because one thing remains
His love really doesn't EVER fail. I promise. The Bible promises. God promises. We can fully trust in Him without having any doubts or uncertainties or anything. Doesn't that just make you wanna smile? I'm smiling. It just brings joy and peace to my soul knowing [and not only knowing-but truly believing] that I have one thing in my life that will always stay constant and always be on my side. Ahhhh [sigh of relief, lol]. Well here's a video of the song lyrics I posted above. Truly, truly reflect on how much God loves you and will always be there for you, no matter what.